Grateful

I am grateful to be on this new path of peace and healing.

According to The Secret by Rhonda Byrne, when you are on the frequency of following your true path – doing what you are meant to do - the way should be easy, effortless.  Opportunities appear that are pleasant because they are meant for you.

One opportunity that opened up is babysitting once or twice a week for a really nice family.  The three -year -old girl and six -year-old boy are bright, sweet, and adorable.  Last week, they were down for their naps and I sat on the back porch – sun on my shoulders, looking out at the lake and thinking, “This is my new job.  This is my new life.”  They pay me the same that I was making at my corporate job.  I could have been sitting in an office, forcing myself through my day.  Instead, I was playing with children and sitting in sunshine.

My largest expenditure that I felt unable to sacrifice was yoga.  Miraculously, help was needed at the studio, so I am now trading my time helping at the front desk for free yoga.  And I love working there because it’s something I believe in, a place that I truly care about and love to nurture.

Same with being at home.  As an introvert, I love the opportunity to spend the day by myself, thinking, writing, nurturing my home and my family.  I can honestly say that I’ve found so much joy in being home – in caring for my household, having time to do thoughtful things for my husband, cooking lovely, healthy meals, and helping with the family business - our rental properties.

All of these beautiful opportunities presented themselves because I was open, because I was searching for a way to truly be me.  And most importantly, because I believed that I would be guided with all of my heart.  It is the life that I visualized for many years.  And it was up to me to take the first step – all this time.

The Job- Marketing for a Software Company

You know what else?  The job wasn’t that bad.  Stressful, yes, as most jobs are.  Demanding, yes.  Infringing on my personal life – of course.  Who doesn’t work 50+ hours nowadays?  But I didn’t mind it.  I really liked the people with whom I worked; it was an opportunity to practice business writing, and I was sent with my laptop to places like Las Vegas, New York City, Orlando, New Hampshire.  I even had a company iPhone (which I used much more for playing Words with Friends than for checking company email.)  As far as jobs go, not one to send someone running. 

But my life was full of anxiety.  I felt that I never had time, I felt that I was always grumpy, always complaining, always tired.  I know it sounds dramatic, but the more I pursued yoga and listened to my inner voice, the more my soul screamed to leave the damaging cycle.  I have always wanted to finish the novel that I started 10 years ago.  My life’s dream is to be a bestselling author.  So, if I don’t start writing now, when will I ever finish?